My Angel Baby

I was 17 yrs old when I became pregnant with my baby boy. Even though I was what you would consider a teenager, I very much wanted my son and took all the proper precautions as in eating well, taking vitamins and overall health habits. In my 38th week of pregnancy, I went in for a routine check-up and no heartbeat was found. The Doctor sent me to the hospital for a sonogram and I was told that my son was no longer alive. An induced delivery was scheduled for the following morning. After receiving the medication to begin contractions, I became very ill from the medications and was in labor for hours. It was decided because I was contracting and not dilating, that a c-section would be performed. I gave birth to my son born sleeping 10/22/85 by c-section.


  After all of this, I had contracted a bacterial blood infection and I also almost had not pulled through. My family suggested an autopsy be performed on my baby and because I was really in no condition to make rational decision's, I complied. However, that autopsy never gave me any answer's as to what had happened to my son. If I had to do it all over again, knowing now what that involves, I would have never consented to that autopsy because I was given no answers anyway. Once this was all said and done, years later when I became pregnant with my "RAINBOW" baby, I was able to get some medical records and this is what the discharge summary said...."I refuse to dictate a discharge summary because this could easily be a malpractice case."..Imagine my horror! I took this information to an attorney and although no amount of money could ever compensate me for the pain I endured and the heartache I still feel, I thought I could hire an attorney and get answers or, at least, compensation. WRONG! Statue of limitations on a wrongful death are 2yrs here in Pa. It was 4yrs later. They ran out. This is another reason I am adamant about advocating for yourself. I have done some work with a patient rights advocacy group and continue to do so........



   Even though my son would be 30 yrs old, there is a missing part of me in Heaven.
 I still have my day's I mourn him.
He was and IS my ONLY SON!
His memory will forever stay alive in me and I will continue to advocate
 this issue and keep his memory alive.

Visiting My Angel Baby with my Granddaughter Mother's Day 2013

Balloon Release on 
My Son's 30th Birthday in Heaven
10/22/15













As long as I live, his memory will stay alive!
 A mother never gets over the loss of a child. 

Until we meet agin my Sweet boy Bradley James! 

11 comments:

  1. I just read your story. I'm sorry for your loss. No mother should ever have to feel the grief of losing their baby.
    Oh and by the way my 14 yr old "baby" boys name is Bradlee.=)God bless you!

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    1. Thank you Robin, that is very nice of you to say. :)

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  2. Oh I am so sorry for your loss. I have two angel babies too but they didn't make it that far. It's something that is really hard to understand but we do have two little boys now. I can only imagine what you've gone through. Thanks for sharing.

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    1. Thank you and I am sorry for your loss too.

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  3. I cannot imagine such a loss. my heart goes out to you and my thanks for the strength your blog and sharing gives to others.

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    1. Thank you so much, that means a whole lot to me.

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  4. I got teary-eyed when I saw the footprints!! I can't imagine how hard that was. It is so neat that you took something from that and turned it into good (advocating for others). I'm sure he'd be (and is) extremely proud of you.

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    1. Thank you for your kind words and for taking the time to read My Angel baby and responding. It means a great deal to me.

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  5. Just found your site on a giveaway blog hop.

    I lost my son Alexander in December 2009 due to an infection (contracted in the hospital). Not a day goes by where I don't think of him. My grief has/is/will continue to change, I'm sure. I love to hear stories about how people 20, 30 years on still think about their children. It gives me hope. Thanks for sharing.

    Check out my recent post for a "happy, sad" story. http://journeysofthezoo.blogspot.ca/2012/04/tea-party-for-three.html

    journeysofthezoo at hotmail dot com
    http://journeysofthezoo.blogspot.ca

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    1. I feel for you. My heart goes out to you. My grandma lost a baby and still to this day she tears when talking of her so, I think the sense of loss and pain always remains.

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